Just Phuck It

Man, I'm sick as a dog. This hasn't been a good summer for me. I've just been going through the motions really. I'm tired of the stupid ass job and folks just thinking that it's cool to do or say shit that isn't cool and get away with it. I'm just sick, sick, sick.

Where was I?

I have trimmed down a couple of folks in my ever shrinking circle of friends. I'm getting to the point where I feel like I can't relate to anyone anymore. It's like I'm in my own little universe and the only person that matters in my little Peanut. Niggas that are supposed to be your friend tell folks all your business. This one broad in particular has been axed from the friendship circle because of that shit. It didn't matter what the hell I told her, somebody in her damn family knew my damn business, even after I explicitly told her not to divulge the information to anyone. My damn bad. Plus, I made the mistake of telling her about some issues that I was having with my sister. Next thing I know this bitch is mouthing off about my sister to this dude that is clearly infatuated with her. Maybe it's just me, but I don't like for anyone to say anything bad about my family but me. Yes, my sister has did some fucked stuff to me, but she's also done a lot of stuff, that I will never forget. But again I have no one to blame but myself for even telling her. Now she feels that everytime I can't do anything with her it's because of my sister. My sister isn't the reason I don't have money. I don't have money because I am a single parent, with single parent bills. Her ass lives with her sister and has no kids. I rest my case.

Then I have another friend that feels it's okay to tell her friends my damn business. I remember one particular incident when she told me that her friend asked her "why I let him (my baby's father) use me like that?" because I slept with him. First of all, why is my friend discussing who I'm having sex with to anyone. Second of all, I've only had three sexual partners in my whole 27 years of living, which is more than I can say about my friend's friend. I tell you broads.

I'm just tired of telling my "so-called" friends stuff in confidence and they think that means that they can tell anybody. I'm better off alone. With friends like these, I don't need enemies.

I'm just in a pissy mood y'all that's all. However, I mean what I say about my "so-called" friends, I'm just going to take a sabbatical from these broads and see if I still feel the same way about them. Probably will.........

Peace.