Evil Thoughts and Actions

I never thought that I could be so thoughtless and shallow. Here I was judging other women who were doing the very same thing that I'm doing now and thinking to myself, how could you do this? I remember thinking the same thing about men who do the same thing. It's just all wrong. Wrong I say......

I am an evil and cruel person.

Not only am I dangling two men by the hearts, but I'm doing it so effortlessly and without a conscious. I am such and evil person. I deserve all the heartache that will come to me. I deserve to live out the rest of my life as a lonely, old bitter woman who has a large collection of cats.

Why can't I just be honest? Why can't I let SDR go? Why continue the torture that ensues?

I am being extremely unfair to Young Buck even though I don't consider us to be in a formal relationship, isn't it just plain wrong to mislead him?

Damn, things shouldn't be this complicated...........

Stay tuned for the drama as it unfolds.....