I Am the American Idol

Make no mistake people, I am the epitome of what every body wants but can't have.....I'm just playing nobody with good sense would want to be like me, besides I like being me. I have my days when I just complain about the color of the sun and my flabby thighs, but truth be told, I like the person that I have evolved into. I am never satisfied with anything, because I strive to better and I think that has come from being a single mama. Without my little "Peanut" I wouldn't have the guts to pursue this so-call medical career of mine or put up with being a security officer. These are things that I wouldn't have done because I had become somewhat complacent with the situation that I was in. One of the things that I love most about me, is that I'm single. I thought that I could handle a relationship, but I realize that I have a lot of maturing to do and moreso, I'm pretty selfish about my space. I enjoy being single because I:

1. Can roll over and not smell another person's stank breath
2. Do not have to answer to anyone but God
3. Can talk on the phone late at night and not have to tell anyone who I'm talking to
4. Have sex with as many people as I want without getting pregnant, an STD, or hurt feelings (it's called masturbation)

Now that may not seem like the ideal life for some women, but it is for me. This isn't a life I've made myself have to accept, but life that I enjoy and cherish. If I get married, good and if I don't, then that's good too. I'd rather be married at 60 and have 20 years of wedded bliss than to get married at 26 and have 60 years of wedded hell. Right now, I don't want to wake up with someone else beside me. I have become content with my life after I realized that I only wanted someone because I was always taught that you're supposed to have someone. I believe that even if I didn't have my baby, I would be content. Anyway, speaking of having sex with people, I did have a freaky dream about ol' dude. Hmmm, I almost didn't want to wake up.....Enough said, until the next time..............