What's Love Got To Do With It?

I don't know what's been happening with me lately, but I feel an overwhelming desire to be with someone. I know I stated in a couple of posts back, that I didn't want a relationship with anyone and then I met, sexy man (AKA, XTC). He's so cute and recently we've been speaking to each other quite a bit, at work of course. Anyway, I started thinking about how it would be nice to just kick it with someone besides myself (I mean, I'm just that damn good). I still don't want a relationship per se. With me, it's just too complicated. When I first hook up with a person. I develop an almost violent obsession with them. I have to talk to them all the damn time and I have know that I'm the onliest one in their life and yadda, yadda. Then after, oh, I'll say, three weeks, I'm like "are you still here? Nigga, just leave!" The romantic/obsessive behavior has ceased. Sometimes, depending on how bad that person gets on my nerves, I'm probably wishing for some bodily harm to come to their ass. Is this normal? I didn't think so.

Well, back to XTC. He has a couple of chicks that he hooks up with on an occasional basis. That's cool and everything, but all I want to know is can I fit in those jeans? I'm telling y'all, when I say this brother has it going on, I mean all the way on. Damn, I wish I was his t-shirt or something! However, contrary to what I'm writing, my lust, I mean desire to be with him isn't strictly about his looks, he has some interesting things going on in his life. He's a drummer in a jazz band. Those people who know me, know that i'm a sucker for some music. Now, I'm an even bigger sucker for a man that makes music. Plus, I like his accent, it's from up north or something. Anyway, I'm not going to worry about trying to approach him. I'm going to wait for the right timing. If it's meant to be, then we'll be in each other's pants.
Until the next time.................