I'm Wasting Away Here

Blah, blah, blah

I've been in a state of blahdom for most of the new year. Things just aren't working out for me the way I want them to. I'll be starting school again soon, but in my opinion, not soon enough. I never thought I'd be so happy to be reading about protein structures being denatured and shit. Ah, the life of an amateur scientist.

During lunch today, I was driving around and happened to come across the route that I used to take to get to class from work. I got a little misty eyed remembering how I was doing about 90 mph on a surface street trying to race to my class which started at 6pm, although I was just walking out of the door at my job at 6pm. Well, I guess a lot of you are like why would you sign up for a class that starts at 6, when you don't get off until 6, well let's just say I'm a determined bitch. I asked my boss about possibly shortening my lunch break so that I could leave work early and make it to class. Well, that idea was pooh poohed from the jump and I never mentioned it again. However, please make note that my former coworker was allowed to rearrange her schedule to attend class.

Am I bitter? Of course.

Never one to let one window shut out all dreams and hopes, I did find a program where I can finish up my classes online and get certification as an allied health professional since I've decided to delay medical school for a couple of years. I kept toying with the notion of just settling for being a Physician Assistant, but I know that in my heart of hearts, I wouldn't be satisfied. Maybe it's the ego that longs to be known as Doctor Copeland, hell I don't know. One thing that I've learned from my experiences is that nothing worth having comes easy. I'm truly grateful for the struggles I've had to endure just to get to the place where I know I'll be content. I know I'll be pissed off about having to pay back those damn loans, but I'll be aight.

Hey, I just noticed something, my post was almost cuss free. Damn, I have got to make more of an effort next time.

Hmm, I'm Neurotic, Eh?

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