So, it's been a minute and I have lots to tell. First off, Facebook is the devil.......it allows evil to pervade and even sometimes end possible romances.
Now, I'm not saying that I didn't contribute to the situation, but I somehow feel that facebook saved me from a life of heartbreak.....not that my heart isn't breaking now, but I feel that the situation would've been ten times as worse. Here's the tale of my woe...
I was seeing, no scratch that, talking to someone off and on for the past year and a half. We connected on so many levels, but he had one fatal character flaw....he just didn't give a damn. So, needless to say, I never understood him. Anyhoo, so being the highly principled person that I am (or would like to be), I wanted to be sure that he wasn't involved with anyone before I gave him the green to re-pursue me, so I went to Facebook page #1. Nothing there....quite innocent. Facebook page #2, however, piqued my interest. There was one post in particular that seemed very, how shall I put it, concerning. There was a woman who commented on his post whose profile pic, coincidentally, was of the two of them. I'm not clairvoyant, nor do I have ESP, but that sent off warning signals. I don't know of too many people who have profile pics of themselves and a their "friend" of the opposite sex. When I asked him about it, of course he denied it and said that nothing was going on between them. However, still not really believing him, I copied and pasted the status and all comments associated with them into a message and sent it to him. It took him a week to respond, but of course, he didn't sound too happy when he called. When I didn't answer the phone, he then sent me a message via facebook saying that I had "wayyyy too much time on my hands". I don't know why, but that set me off.
First of all, let me preface the ensuing conversation afterwards by saying, I helped this man move, "loaned" him money, and not to mention when his pockets were a little short, I picked up the meal ticket. So, when I saw that I was basically being played, I was hotter than the Fourth of July with plenty of firecrackers. I called him and left an unflattering voicemail, then proceeded to respond to his Facebook message with an even less than unflattering response. He then called back and left a voicemail in which every other word was peppered with "fuck" and some other expletives. After all that, I was quite humored. Later on, I started to feel remorse for what I said and what I did simply because the evidence was pretty blatant. I didn't need to go the extra mile to copy and paste. Now, I'm just hurt and still remorseful. I acted out of character and that really bothered me. I even went as far as to call him back and attempt to apologize. This is truly weird and I have asked and continue to ask God "why should I feel bad"? Well, I know why, but I'd like to hear God say it.....
The moral of the story is ladies and gents, if you suspect that the love of your life is involved with someone and you confirm it via facebook just know that the fallout can be quite disastrous......Again, Facebook is the devil....let the church say Amen!